Day 7 — Dear hopes and dreams

Dear hopes and dreams,

It feels good to have you out of the back corner of my brain and tangibly present everywhere. Most importantly, in my heart. I know I put you on the back burner for a while, when I began putting other people’s versions of you first. It wasn’t fair to you and I’m sorry.

But today, when I realise my 30 before 30 list has a focus on you, and that I think about you often enough, I feel better. To know that my hope of spreading the joy I get with my writing is slowly and surely coming true, to know that my dream for travel and wanderlust still survives all it’s faced, to know that my hope and dream for more love in this world was not foolishly misplaced…makes me feel wonderfully happy, and fills me with content.

When I look back, I realise I have always held out my candle to you to bring me back from the darkness that sometimes took over my life. When I felt that all was lost, it was your light that told me it wasn’t. When I almost gave up on the very things I believed in, you showed me exactly why I shouldn’t. For that, and for giving me a reason to hold on and move ahead, I am, and always will be, thankful.

There is just one more addition to the three of you that exist – my hope and dream to find a love that will love me back, with all my shortcomings…with all my flaws…and all my mistakes. Because they are what make me a human, and what make the person who I am, so real. Things that can be changed and need to be will be, but there is an essence to my soul that needs to be loved. As hard (or possibly impossible) as this is to find, there’s nothing like a little hope to keep you going, right?

This, I add to your family. This, I add to my life. This, I add to my hopes and dreams.

Love always,

Me

<3

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30 before 30? …(Continued)

My 30 before 30 list (Part 2):

16. Learn how to ice-skate and go ice-skating at a beautiful place.

17. Buy myself an Apple product/something ridiculously expensive; with my own money. Yes, Apple products are under my ‘ridiculously expensive’ umbrella.

18. Live by the beach, for a few days at least! Gold Coast trip at Q1. But there’s got to be more, it was beautiful.

The beach at Gold Coast!

The beach at Gold Coast!

My legs with my weird feet. That Gold Coast beach was divine.

My legs with my weird feet. That Gold Coast beach was divine.

19. Go on a short trip with friends (maybe a couple of days or more). Gold Coast, Matheran, Goa. There’ve got to be more (clearly, I love travelling!)

What we see as we walk into the beautiful land.

What we see as we walk into the beautiful land.

There's nothing like disconnecting from the busy world. And reconnecting with nature.

There’s nothing like disconnecting from the busy world. And reconnecting with nature.

20. Gather travelling experiences. I know I will see Australia. I hope to see Spain, Italy, Brazil, France and New Zealand too. And if possible, to visit the countries that all my wonderful friends belong to!

21. Do volunteer work in a serious way. Always loved doing this…something very close to my heart.

22. Have at least 5 ads published. As a copywriter, I needed to have one of these on my list. With two dream hotel/resort clients while I worked in my first job, that wish came true!

First ad ever published!

First ad ever published!

23. Learn to ride a bicycle, someday! Yes, I’ve never had anyone to teach me. Either they were too busy, or they figured they didn’t need to. Instead, I taught myself to rollerblade. Hopefully, I’ll learn to cycle too someday.

24. Treat my family to something special; either all together, or just for each of them separately.

25. Get back in touch with writing, for the love of it. It’s happened. This blog is testament to that. But I won’t cross it out, lest I lose touch with it.

26. Go on a road trip. It’s something I cannot get enough of. Went on one to Byron Bay. I look forward to another few, and I’m calling shotgun on all of them!

27. Witness a meteor shower with someone/some people that matter. Or at least, see a shooting star! And yes, for the silly reason I want to make a wish on it, because my inner child believes it could come true.

28. See a sunset, and a sunrise – in that order – with someone who matters. Whether it’s a friend, or someone special (oh wait…there’s no reason that that someone can’t be both!), having a day that goes long into the night and continues till morning is a dream. Specially with the added bliss of star gazing *sigh*

29. Let my inner romantic live a little, and do something absolutely romantic. It’s something silly, I know. But I’ve been inspired to do this, and I hope to cross this off in the next few years! It could be anything, from being kissed in the rain, to dining by the beach – under the stars. A girl can dream, right?

30. Find someone who loves me for me, and who can deal with all the quirks I have. Falling in love, without losing myself, perhaps? This is probably going to be the difficult – if not impossible – one. But, as they say, if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough. It can be an emotional challenge, but, one that is to be faced. Even if it doesn’t happen, what matters is that I tried.

This list contains all the (mostly) simple things my heart hopes and dreams for. But they are all a bit long term. It’s just a fun way to go through life, and I will hopefully love every moment of trying to cross off these things!

I also plan on making another list, which has things that are a bit more short term, and possibly, even more fun, and maybe even downright silly!

It’s a good practice, and I’d strongly suggest anyone reading this to consider making a list of their own. It doesn’t need to be over-ambitious, it doesn’t need to all be achievable even. It doesn’t even have to have a limit to it! What it needs to have is your heart. Both, in creating it…and in hoping it gets completed.

<3