Day 12 — Dear me who I wish I could be (Ideal/future me)

Dear Ideal Me,

You are, in all manners, me! You have the same big brown eyes, the dark flowing hair, the mischievous smile – all of it. You love to read, have a wide taste in music, and love the little things. You think hugs are the best therapy (barring ice cream, of course! Because let’s face it, nothing can beat the warm glow you feel with that cold spoon of deliciousness). You are a sappy romantic who tries to hide it and fails miserably :P

Basically, you are me – just a slightly different, and better (possibly?), version of me! Who I may, or may not become someday.

I have stuff that holds me back. That stops me from doing some things because I over-evaluate them. Not that I am always conscientious and ponder consequences before actions, but yes, I do.
You on the other hand, are possibly yolo (ugh, how I hate using that word!) personified. Of the school of thought that you have only one life, you do whatever it is that you want to do and deal with the consequences in time. If you do get into trouble, at least you had fun getting there right? One day, I shall get there. I may never say yolo, but I’ll try to live life that way.

I have always had body image and self-confidence issues. I’ve preferred being in the background, with friends and other people who (I believed) looked better than I did. Not realising it was the way they carried themselves that made the difference, till recently.
You, on the other hand, are self-confident. You are sexy. You are beautiful. You know you have your flaws, but you work with them – not against them. You accept yourself, and change what you can. But you are always the best version of YOU. I will definitely be you, someday!

You are living the life you wanted. On your terms, with no asterisk about conditions applying. You have the swagger to bring entire masses to their knees, and to look gorgeous doing it. You will get to your dreams, because when you know what you want – you will damn well get it.

Here’s to the person I hope to be. Here’s to the person I will be.

Love,

Me

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Day 11 — Dear younger version of me

Note: Of all the younger versions of me, I’ve decided to write to my 16 year old self. It always is a milestone year for most people, and that was no different for me.

Dear you,

You’re 16. And you’re becoming a delightful young woman. You’ve finally gotten over all those demons that have been holding you back since your childhood.

At 16, you’ve seen more than your fair share of turbulence in your life. But then again, even at this tender age, you’ve realised that your problems are not as big as you think. This too, shall pass – that is your new outlook on life. And one you should always hold on to.

People laugh at you when you say you are a romantic at heart. What could a 16 year old possibly know about love? Don’t listen to them. Age has nothing to do with what you feel about life and love. You could be 50 and not know what love really is. You have a wonderful heart, and don’t you ever forget that.

You have someone wonderful in your life right now, apart from your family and friends. He is helping you discover what your first brush with relationships feels like. The dizzy happiness, the troubled days occasionally, you’ll see it all. But there will be a point when, because of circumstances, he will have to leave you and walk away. Know it isn’t your fault. Know that it isn’t the end of the world either. There will be someone who brings as much, if not more, joy into your life in the future. Always remember, the only constant in life is change. You will be fine with just that piece of advice =)

You’ve been fighting with your body image issues since a long time. I don’t blame you, it’s the way the society (and sadly, even your family) talk about the way you ‘should’ look. I’m glad you’re trying to get over those that bring you down. Remember, in times when you’re in a dark abyss that seems never-ending…you are the master of your destiny. If you aren’t happy about something, take the steps you need to, to change it. And if you are, don’t listen to what the others have to say. They’re missing out on probably one of the best people in their lives!

Doing well in your exams one year, and going slightly downhill the next…It’s tough, isn’t it? Don’t fret. You can’t always be a genius (unless you’re Einstein or someone, but even they had their off days!). There are some things you can’t get. There are some things you will understand (in school and in life) as time passes. It’s not your grades that make who you are (especially since you are no longer going to be a vet!), it’s the way you take on the world that matters.

You’re going to have a wonderful journey, a part of which you already know in your heart. Listen to it always. And, hold your head high, smile…and face the day, and your life, the best way you can!

Love,

Me/You =)

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30 before 30? …(Continued)

My 30 before 30 list (Part 2):

16. Learn how to ice-skate and go ice-skating at a beautiful place.

17. Buy myself an Apple product/something ridiculously expensive; with my own money. Yes, Apple products are under my ‘ridiculously expensive’ umbrella.

18. Live by the beach, for a few days at least! Gold Coast trip at Q1. But there’s got to be more, it was beautiful.

The beach at Gold Coast!

The beach at Gold Coast!

My legs with my weird feet. That Gold Coast beach was divine.

My legs with my weird feet. That Gold Coast beach was divine.

19. Go on a short trip with friends (maybe a couple of days or more). Gold Coast, Matheran, Goa. There’ve got to be more (clearly, I love travelling!)

What we see as we walk into the beautiful land.

What we see as we walk into the beautiful land.

There's nothing like disconnecting from the busy world. And reconnecting with nature.

There’s nothing like disconnecting from the busy world. And reconnecting with nature.

20. Gather travelling experiences. I know I will see Australia. I hope to see Spain, Italy, Brazil, France and New Zealand too. And if possible, to visit the countries that all my wonderful friends belong to!

21. Do volunteer work in a serious way. Always loved doing this…something very close to my heart.

22. Have at least 5 ads published. As a copywriter, I needed to have one of these on my list. With two dream hotel/resort clients while I worked in my first job, that wish came true!

First ad ever published!

First ad ever published!

23. Learn to ride a bicycle, someday! Yes, I’ve never had anyone to teach me. Either they were too busy, or they figured they didn’t need to. Instead, I taught myself to rollerblade. Hopefully, I’ll learn to cycle too someday.

24. Treat my family to something special; either all together, or just for each of them separately.

25. Get back in touch with writing, for the love of it. It’s happened. This blog is testament to that. But I won’t cross it out, lest I lose touch with it.

26. Go on a road trip. It’s something I cannot get enough of. Went on one to Byron Bay. I look forward to another few, and I’m calling shotgun on all of them!

27. Witness a meteor shower with someone/some people that matter. Or at least, see a shooting star! And yes, for the silly reason I want to make a wish on it, because my inner child believes it could come true.

28. See a sunset, and a sunrise – in that order – with someone who matters. Whether it’s a friend, or someone special (oh wait…there’s no reason that that someone can’t be both!), having a day that goes long into the night and continues till morning is a dream. Specially with the added bliss of star gazing *sigh*

29. Let my inner romantic live a little, and do something absolutely romantic. It’s something silly, I know. But I’ve been inspired to do this, and I hope to cross this off in the next few years! It could be anything, from being kissed in the rain, to dining by the beach – under the stars. A girl can dream, right?

30. Find someone who loves me for me, and who can deal with all the quirks I have. Falling in love, without losing myself, perhaps? This is probably going to be the difficult – if not impossible – one. But, as they say, if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough. It can be an emotional challenge, but, one that is to be faced. Even if it doesn’t happen, what matters is that I tried.

This list contains all the (mostly) simple things my heart hopes and dreams for. But they are all a bit long term. It’s just a fun way to go through life, and I will hopefully love every moment of trying to cross off these things!

I also plan on making another list, which has things that are a bit more short term, and possibly, even more fun, and maybe even downright silly!

It’s a good practice, and I’d strongly suggest anyone reading this to consider making a list of their own. It doesn’t need to be over-ambitious, it doesn’t need to all be achievable even. It doesn’t even have to have a limit to it! What it needs to have is your heart. Both, in creating it…and in hoping it gets completed.

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