Changes…

Note: I mentioned discovering some old poems in my last post. Whenever I get the time, I will be publishing one =)

In every person’s life there comes a change
It may be surprising, it may be strange.
Your entry into my life was a welcome one
It was at a time when in my heart I carried a ton.

You helped me ease the pain, to make a start
In pouring out the deepest worries of my heart.
At first to me it didn’t seem right
To make you worry, or feel sorry at my plight.

But you weren’t bothered about what the world would say
You made it your mission to to brighten my day.
Whenever I was about to stumble and fall
You steadied me, helped me stand tall.

We’ve made our special world because of which we
Know each other so well, it surprises me!
Whenever you need me, know I’m not too far away
And I promise you, I’ll try to keep your worries at bay.

Through thick and thin we’ll stick together
You can be sure, I’ll be there forever.
You make me feel special; you’ve lifted my soul.
Even though I don’t tell you everyday
You mean the world to me, more than words can say!

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The only constant in life, is change…

I have to begin this the way that has became annoyingly too familiar lately….I’m sorry. I’m sorry for this long gap in posting anything. I have only had enough time to be scribbling on scraps of paper, rather than construct my blog posts. Being a Masters student, before you know it, assignments are on top of you like nobody’s business, and you get sucked into the whole avidness of life’s routines. Even if you don’t want to, you do.

I know, it has been a while since I’ve last written. I’m just on the verge of completing a very tough semester at uni. And I genuinely miss writing and sharing what I have to say with all of you.

I’m glad that all/most of you are still here. One more week, and I will be free to do what I love. One more week, I ask you to bear with my tardiness. One more week, that’s all.

In the meantime, to some of the regulars on my blog (and to the rest of you, if you have the time), I would like to ask you for a favour. There is a wonderful job in my city that I want to apply for next week. The only thing I can use to apply for it is something I have written that isn’t work-related. And I’m allowed only one item of submission. I would like to pick a blog post, but I can’t decide which one. If any of you can oblige and help me pick, I will forever be grateful. If you’d like to comment here, or inbox me, that will be amazing.

Thank you for your patience. And if you choose to help me, thank you in advance for that.

Till you read me again next week, and you will (I intend to keep my word this time)  :)

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Day 9 — Dear world

Note: I didn’t know what to write for a while, then I decided to wing it. I’m writing to the world as a person, as a whole, as an entity. Hope this makes sense!

Dear world,

I have experienced parts of you, for the past twenty-something years of my existence. I’ve seen wondrous things everywhere I’ve been, but…I want to see you, all of you, bared to your very soul. I want to know everything about you – your wondrous hidden beauty, your imperfectly perfect flaws, your  but more than the bad and ugly, I’d like to see the good. Not because I won’t love you still, but I’d probably learn to appreciate you a lot more then.

I want to know that there is a reason to believe in good things still existing in you, because only you can give me that. I try to see the good in every little thing, no matter how messed up. But, with everyday goings-on, I see a fading in that belief, because you only rear the unflattering side of yours. I believe you can be much better than this. Please, don’t prove me wrong.

I am, but a small part of you. I don’t have too many fancy things in and around my life to make me better than most. I work hard to prove myself, and I always will. I don’t see myself as above you, and I never will. I believe we share an existence so I can make a difference to the lives of other people you share an existence with.

That, is my purpose. That, is my wish.

Love,

Me

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Day 8 — Dear person I last kissed

Note: I had originally titled this a lot of different things. And then I realised, there’s so much I’d give away in the title, and I didn’t want to. So I changed it to it’s original title :)

Dear person I last kissed,

I’m going to start this by referring to my note above. That’s kind of how I feel about a kiss. There’s so much it can say, and so much that is left unsaid. All in the single moment (or several) of one kiss.

It was no different in our case either. We had a fiery chemistry growing, that built up to that crescendo of a moment that was a kiss. I felt I would probably melt with the warm glow that rose inside me when you kissed me. I had a knot in my stomach I hadn’t felt in a while, and it was a feeling I had forgotten, actually. A feeling that I loved recalling, to remember how wonderful it made me feel. I literally had no excuse to back away, and I kissed you back, because it felt like the most natural thing to do.

I knew I could have let myself want more in that moment. And who knows what might have been, if I hadn’t broken the magic that I believed surrounded us? But I did. And it wasn’t for anything else, but that the magic could’ve just been a figment of my imagination.

I want you to know, I don’t make it a habit of kissing people, especially people that mean a lot to me. But with you, there was no added drama; it felt right, then. Do I want to see if this goes somewhere? Why not :) Will I ask for it to…no. Because you, amongst other people, know that I have, and always will be, worried to ask :)

So, you kissed me. That hasn’t changed what we are to each other; how much we share; our bond. But you made me reconnect (albeit momentarily) with a world I’d forgotten about, and a small part of me probably resents that. Only because I liked it better when it was a distant memory, than a recent reality :)

Until we make more memories with our strengthening bond,

Much love,

Me

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Day 4 — Dear bro

Dear bro,

It took me a while to write this. Solely because I’ve never written to you. And also, in part, because we’ve only reconnected over the past 5 years or so. So there’s not THAT much to say. But, then again, there is.

I’ll start this off by saying something I don’t think either of us says enough of, if ever – I love you. Not just the “I have to say it because we’re related” kind, because that I wouldn’t. You know that. This is more – “I’d fight the world for you because I love you enough to”. And I want, and need, you to know that.

You are the link in my life that I didn’t know was crucial for the longest time. I absolutely cannot imagine anyone else who will listen to things I have to say and give me a perspective from a family point of view – and not expect me to just take it. You are someone whose realised I am my own person, and that I need to be allowed to spread my wings. I really, and truly, appreciate that.

Through this, I also want you to know that I believe in you. And everything you say and do. It may sound ludicrous at times, but I see where you’re coming from (most of the time, at least!). If there is something you believe in, I’ll stand by your side and fight for it. Not because you’re my brother, but because you deserve to have someone who can see what you see – or at least, tries to. Maybe our folks don’t get it, what you hope they will get someday. But when you need someone to translate into their terms what you’re trying to say about life and all that jazz, you know where to find me. I hope you do.

We may have our differences, but we use those effectively. We may not talk as often as we’d like, but that’s okay. I still cherish you through it all, and always will.

Love,

Me

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