Day 17 — Dear awesome new friends

Dear awesome new friends,

I was just going to say, you are out-of-this-world-amazing, and that is all. But decided not to be so off-handed about it, especially since you all know me as the one who can never stop at a few words :P

I’ve met almost all of you after making the move to a country that I knew nothing about. If you are still a part of my life, it is because you have enriched my experience of it in many ways. I need you to know that your presence is appreciated, and everyday, I learn so many new things thanks to you. About you, about myself, and about the world. I hope I add some value to your life too :)

I If we don’t talk enough, or seem to have fallen out, that sucks. But it’s the down side to changing personalities and, quite often, changing interests. I wish we weren’t drifting apart, and I wish things were different. Here’s hoping things will change!

Till we all make new memories again,

Me

<3

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Second Chance

Note: Another one of my old poems. Yes, that is my handwriting, I used to sign off as ‘Angel’ quite often back in undergrad, especially when the fear of being caught for not paying attention and thrown out of class was instilled in us =) When my mind wandered, I’d write, and so…one day, instead of taking notes, I did this =D

Poem 2

With a little edit (after looking at it after about 4 years, maybe), this is:
Second Chance

They say love is friendship on fire
Doesn’t that imply you could get hurt?
Why would you want to walk a tight wire
Just to possibly end up feeling like dirt?

But then, it’s also a beautiful feeling
It could turn your world around.
Your life becomes one full of meaning
Feelings of joy and happiness abound.

Maybe you might get hurt someday
After all, it is a part of life.
That doesn’t mean you should keep love at bay
You can’t have life without strife.

Yes, it’s true, friendship’s safer and all
But it’s better to have loved and lost
Than to have never loved at all.
These are things in life with no extra cost!

Go ahead, don’t be scared, take a chance
Give your heart the choice to dance!

<3

Day 16 — Dear ex-boyfriends ~ Yes, plural. Deal with it! :P

Dear ex-boyfriends,

I wasn’t sure how I felt about this letter when I saw the title, or even if I should be writing this in the first place. But, I figured I should. If I can’t, it’s only going to hold me back, and that is something I definitely do not want. I chose to put you guys in one letter because it just seemed apt and, also because, it isn’t fair to be only writing to one of you =)

K, you were the first boy I called my ‘boyfriend’. The first one I kissed, the first that took my breath away with said kisses. You taught me what it was to see past the things people hid behind, to discover the real gem of someone’s soul. We had our ups and downs, and though I admit some of it could have been handled with a little bit more dignity, we made it through it all. We didn’t realise the stress we were dealing with all around, and thought it was what came with the territory of being teenagers. Whatever we faced, we faced it strong. And I think our relationship started shaping the person I was to be.
When I look back on what we had, I still smile. Because we had a lot of memories back then. At the end of it all though, we were young, we were naive, and we were, quite possibly, in love. I say ‘quite possibly’ because I feel the idea of love entranced us a lot more back then, and I say this in the nicest way possible. I gave it my all, but my heart was still learning to deal with all the emotions thrown its way.
What makes me happy though, is to see how far you’ve come. How far we’ve both come, in fact. You’ve been there through some milestones in my life. And vice versa. And as I said to you before this year began, I’m thankful we’ve gotten back in touch with each other over the years. Feels good to know we’ve matured enough to be nice to each other. Thank you for being all you have.

E. Oh, what do I say to you? You started out as one of my amazing friends, and then became so much more. What I loved about our relationship was that, the most. The fact that, as friends, we could talk about anything under the sun. And then, as lovers, some more. You encouraged my strengths, which helped you develop yours too. We went through the changes of being 18+ years and in love. And having our hearts broken because of the way things ‘were supposed to be’. And rebuilt, and broken again.
I won’t rehash the past, because so many good things came from our relationship. Amazing friends, great memories, and inexplicable bonds. And in a strange way, if not for you, I don’t think I would have realised I was meant to fall in love with the city I live in. So I’m grateful for that.
What I regret is this past year taking a toll on our once-solid friendship. You said ‘things change, people change’. I tried so hard for that not to be true for us. But somewhere, I think we both sort of took a step back, and another, and another…until we were safely far enough to not be affected. And somewhere, I stopped trying. Not because I didn’t care, but because I was tired of being the one who had to try.
In saying that, I hope things start to look up, for you and maybe, for our friendship. I also hope that whatever it is that life throws your way, you handle well and come out stronger. You’re capable of it, of reaching out to your dreams. You just need to see it. I loved you, and I still hope for the friend I had before all this. I can only hope that friend is still there somewhere, not for my sake, but for the lives you will touch.

You’ve both been there at different points in my life, to teach me different lessons. To help me experience life through your eyes. To let me have people to call mine. Thank you for helping me grow. Thank you both, thank you for the memories.

Love,

Me

<3

Day 13 — Dear future me

Note: I’m writing this to my 40 year old self, presuming that it’s a good time in the future to write to.

Dear future me,

I did mention you in my previous letter. But I shall, once again reiterate what I have to say. Just so we’re clear, you know?

I hope that as you read this, you have finished your ’30 before 30′ list, and have moved on to your ‘Things to do before I’m 40’ list. I hope that you have everything your heart has hoped for, because with every little hurdle you face along the way, you realise that you deserve it all. Because you have damn well earned it.

Let’s hope that all the things you believed in when you were young were worth believing in when you read this. That true friends will stick by you through it all. That love is hard, but it’s worth it. That family is important, but they don’t always know what’s good for you. That you are your own person, in charge of your own happiness, and that no one can take that from you.

I hope you have reached that point in life where you are happy with the person you are, inside and out. Where you are finally the best version of you that you believe you can possibly be. You have a beautiful soul (something too many people have already told you), and you should have let that beauty shine upon the world. They deserve it.

Lastly, I don’t know what direction your life has taken you professionally. But all I hope is that you still write. Either as a hobby or as part of your career, I hope you put your soul to paper as often as you can. Because I know this now, I knew it a while ago, and you will know it too – nothing helps you grow and soar to heights unknown with the joy that writing gives you.

I look forward to YOU.

Love,

Me

P.S. Never forget, nothing beats a good hug, or a bowl of ice cream with good music and a book =)

<3

Day 2 — Dear closest friends (after my besties)

Note: I have a few friends that are incredibly close to my heart. With a couple of of them, we may not call each other best friends, but that’s what we are. And with a few others, we are just kindred spirits that found each other. And presumably, hopefully, will never let each other go. I cannot imagine what it’d be like, without them. These are people who, if and when they read this, will know who they are!
P.S. Sorry for the length, this was a lengthy one to write :P

Dear closest friends,

You lot are a wonderful lot. After all my years of putting up walls, I’ve realised you all are the ones that will constantly break through them. And even on days I’m not feeling up to letting you in, I know you will be waiting patiently on the other side. Just because you care.

Firstly, ladies. When I sat to write this, I realised that there were only three women that I could consider as my closest after A. And I am okay with that. I’d go to the moon and back if I could just have you in my life! Each of you has been a part of different parts of my life, and continue to be in it. And make it a happier place.
To start with, the lovely R. You’ve been there through my growing years in high school. You taught me about many things – life, relationships and friendships too. If it wasn’t for you, break would have been rather lame in school :) The fact that we can have grown up conversations today is testament to our friendship!
Next, my PYT – yep, my very own Pretty Young Thing. You, my little ball of energy, have been showering my life with all things happy, ever since undergrad. Or, even more so, since we met the ‘Cold Man’ :) You’ve taught me what it meant to laugh through my tears. To live life my own way. To say whatever is on my mind, and maybe in my heart. And to forgive or forget, whichever comes first. For everything, I thank you. Know I will always be there for you, no matter where I am in this world. You are an inseparable part of my soul. And I hope you know the important place you hold in my life. Always and Forever.
Coming about to my gorgeous S. Oh, you have no idea what it means to me to have a strong friendship going between us. Who knew, we’d come this far, after growing up together in diapers? It’s not something either of us had foreseen, but our time together in Australia has made me realise that if there was a friendship I would regret not holding on to, or working on, it would have been this one. I’m so glad we didn’t let each other go. You have helped me grow into the person I am today, and you’ve seen me change through the past year. You’ve told me how proud you are of the woman I have become, and that is a symbol of why I cherish you so much. You voice your opinions, and you’ve stood up to be true to yourself. I truly admire you, and I’m going to hope against all hopes to keep you close (geographically and otherwise).

Secondly, the men. Oh, I am blessed to know some wonderful, delightful men in my life. But there are some who hold a preciously close place to my heart. This is for you.
To kick things off, R and S. From the times we started hanging out midway through undergrad, until now. You boys – or rather, men – have only brought a whole bunch of smiles into my life. R, your jokes have always taken the cake for me! And S, gossiping with you is so much more fun than with anyone else! And today, when I talk to you both about our futures, our dreams and our ambitions, I realise how we’ve grown through time. And how, no matter what, we will find a way to laugh at situations. Because, if you can’t laugh in life, is it really worth the trouble? :)
To R (the other one) and L, the two wonderful men I’ve come across in my short time in Australia. I cannot stress how thankful I am for having you all in my life. R, you have completely turned around the way I think. And in the best way possible. You’ve taught me to think different, and challenged me to push myself further. I’ve been striving for more, because I believe I can. That belief has been born because of our endless conversations. And the fact that we can still have those conversations, whenever we each have the time, is a huge thing I’m grateful for every day. Thank you for being you, and for being in my life! Turning to you, L, I simply CANNOT get over the fact that I’ve known you for just 5 months (as of yesterday), and it feels like I’ve known you all my life. I can talk about anything under the sun with you, from the real, hard to get through stuff of life, to the silly things (that possibly make you question your conversations with me sometimes, hey!). I can be a total child with you, and I know you won’t judge me. Because as you say, we are both awesome, and we are both weird. So, we shall be awesomely weird in life together! Thank you for accepting me through my strangest moods and ramblings. I cannot imagine what it’d have been like, not having you in my life :)

I’d generally have stopped there, but there are some men who I could not afford to lose, and hence deserve a special mention. We may not talk often, or about too much, but when we do, it brings a happiness into my life that I cannot ignore.
To my Squishy ^_^ Our Skype, text/Whatsapp, phone and Facebook conversations have been some of the best things about some of my days in Brissy :) The randomness, the irrelevant arguments, and how we are married on Facebook are all a source of such delight for me! Thank you ‘hubby’, for being so amazing :) No matter what, you will always be my Squishy!!!
To Monsieur SF. I almost called you what I always do, but realised it’d be a no-brainer for people to figure out who you are :) Thank you for delighting me with some intriguing conversations. Thank you for being some of the best company I’ve had, for roaming through the streets or sitting on a bench, eating sushi and talking coffee ;) And your knowledge about my country is an absolute joy! Always be in my life, okay? And also, always give awesome hugs!
To B. You have made me learn to love myself a little more You have opened my mind (and my heart, a bit too) about the possibilities of life and all it has to offer. You have helped me be more appreciative, and for this, I will forever be thankful. Thank you for being such an amazing friend, and someone I can talk to about random things :)
Lastly, to the man who calls me his muse. F, it has been you who has made me smile – nay, blush – often times, with your random text messages, scribbles and the way you look at me. I adore you, and you cannot believe it I’m sure, but you’re are one of the most amazing people I know. And with the wonderful words you always have for me, I worry at times I may disappoint you. You have me on a pedestal; but if I fall, I’m pretty sure you’ll catch me. I absolutely cherish you mister!

Well folks who read to the end, thank you for your patience. And you people I mentioned, know you are the best people in the world. And know that you are, and always will be, cherished parts of someone’s life – mine.

Love,

Me

<3

Day 1 – Dear best friends

Note: This was supposed to be a letter to my best friend, but since I have two…well, that explains my title :)

Dear best friends,

I’m guessing the reason this starts out with a letter to you guys is solely because they presumed it wouldn’t be difficult. But, what do you say to those people who are a part of everything you say and do? Luckily, I never shut up (everyone knows this, but you guys know this too well). So of course, I would have things to say!

Firstly, A. For 10 years (and counting), we’ve been building a friendship that’s withstood a whole load of obstacles, and seen some wonderfully good times, too. We’ve seen each other grow – from teenagers running through the hidden staircases in our building, to young twenty-something women finding our calling in this big world. All the while, knowing that if either of us were to stumble, the other was going to be there to catch us. For the past six years, I was there for you and vice versa. But the only thing missing was a physical presence. Now, finally, we shall be in the same country! I look forward to making the memories we’ve missed out on. And know, if you need me, give me a bit of a notice. I shall jump on a plane for you in the middle of the night, even, just because I love you so! You were, are, and always will be, the Rachel to my Monica.

No, J. In the middle of showering my pretty lady here with love, I haven’t forgotten you! I want you to know that, though we’ve known each other for about half the time that I have known A, you both hold an equally important place in my life. And my heart. If you weren’t there when I moved to another country, I don’t think half my amazing memories could have been made. We’ve been through some stuff in each other’s lives together, and I knew if I needed it, I’d always be able to count on you for a hug, and a reason to smile. I know that you know this, but I’m still going to say this to you. I’m mostly right when it comes to giving advice, so as much as possible, take it :P That being said, I am so proud of you and the person you’ve grown to be in the time I’ve known you. You will always be my Superstar. And I will be your Indiana Jones, whenever you need me to be ;)

Both of you should know that whatever your dreams, your aspirations, your convictions, your premonitions…I’m going to be there for you. No matter what, no matter where I am, no matter when.

Love,

Me

<3

30 before 30? Here’s hoping!

Bucket lists are an awesome concept. They give you a sort of push towards doing more things in life. But most people see themselves as too young to make a bucket list. And before you know it, life passes them by. I always wanted to do the bucket list thing after watching the movie of the same name, but figured as life goes on, my age may be a barrier to some things. Or sometimes some other factor (family, life in general, who knows…). So I figured, why not make a list for every 10-year milestone? After all, you never know which milestone may just be your last…(yes, slightly morbid, but realistic too). And that’s how this list was born.

I’m taking a big step with this. But I’ve been thinking, why not make an actual commitment out of the fact that I want to do 30 things before I turn 30? And not just things that are life goals…but things that make me genuinely happy. If it’s on here, I may actually get around to doing it all, hopefully.

I made this list before I turned 21(way back in October 2010), and as I did, the first thing on the list got crossed off. So through time since then, I’ve been trying to cross of some more things. Here’s the way the list stands today!

My 30 before 30 list (Part 1):

1. Get a tattoo. I actually got two! So far, I’m sticking to those many.

My tattoos <3

My tattoos <3

2. Get a dog.

3. Learn to play the guitar. At least one song, if not more.

4. Learn to cook, properly! It is a continuous process, but it has happened. And I love it!

My attempt at pretty chocolate cupcakes!

My attempt at pretty chocolate cupcakes!

5. Visit Goa at least once. It deserves another proper visit, but once has happened. And it was divine :)

6. Experience and explore India. A land of wonders, there are places I still have to discover within it.

7. Go to Australia for my Masters. Already done with a whole year of it!

Story bridge. Rather iconic, and heartwarmingly beautiful.

Heartwarmingly beautiful.

What I see on my walks everyday through the street mall!

What I see on my walks everyday
             through the street mall!

My uni, where I've met some of the best people of my life.

My uni, where I’ve met some of
           the best people of my life.

8. Learn sign language properly. I know the basic two-handed alphabet of BSL. I’d like to learn more.

9. Go on a long trip/backpacking, with friends/alone (at least a couple of weeks). I’m hoping it’s at one of the foreign land locations!

10. Go to a live concert. David Guetta was definitely a great first concert to go to. But hands down, Coldplay was divine, and has made me infinitely happy!

Creamfields 2012, when the crowd was arriving.

Creamfields 2012, when the crowd was arriving.

David Guetta. Standing on his console, like a boss!

David Guetta. Standing on his console, like a boss!

Coldplay at Suncorp Stadium. Yeah baby <3

Coldplay at Suncorp Stadium. Yeah baby <3

11. Learn Spanish. It has always been a language that I have loved. And, I’m glad to say, I have finally begun with the learning!

12. Learn another foreign language. Maybe Italian, or Chinese even.

13. Read at least 50 novels, more if time permits. It shouldn’t be a point here, but then again…it should. My love for reading needs to be kept alive, and I always want to have a response to the statement ‘So, what are you reading right now?’

14. Do more discovering. About myself, people, places and cuisines. Just trying to find something new every month. I’ve realized that I love doing this, and it’s something absolutely wonderful to do. It gives me such happiness, and I try discovering things about all four things every month =)

15. Get out of my comfort zone, in as many ways as possible. Whether it’s the food that I usually eat, the drinks that I drink, the kind of people I make friends with, the way I feel about love, taking a risk and dating someone I’m scared of taking it to the next level with, or a blind date…Everything needs to be experimented with and explored. Something new may just surprise me, and work!

Continued…