Day 14 – Dear person I miss (Munna)

Dear person I miss,

I had a few people that came to mind when I saw this. People who were back in my hometown were first, but then I realised, I still get to see them when I want to. If there was someone I missed, and couldn’t see anymore (and regretted that fact too), it would be you – Munna. Apart from my grandfathers, you are the one other person I feel the absence of in my life.

We had a rather limited amount of time to get to know each other, but we did. And from the first time we spoke, the both of us knew what a great friendship we had started. You taught me to go after my dreams, and kept me going when things got tough. Manchester United conversations between us were endless, and whenever there was a game I might have missed, or something I didn’t understand, you very passionately explained it to me. If I still love the team and the game, know it is because you guided me onto the path in the first place. You always had a happy outlook on so many things in life, and if I have that today, you were the one who inspired it. Thank you for always being so good to, and for, me.

When you told me about your cancer, all I could do was wish for the best. Any of the silly wishes I made – on an eyelash, on a star, on a clover – it was that you would get better. And everytime you went for chemo, told me you were getting better, I thanked my stars.

And then the day when I thought I’d write to you and see how were doing came. I thought I’d remind you your birthday was around the corner, and like every year I hadn’t forgotten (as you had predicted I would, silly man!). I open your profile and read an RIP post as I do. I was stunned and started scrolling down, and realised your wall was flooded with these messages. It hit me that something had finally taken you, had broken that happy demeanour. As I read I realised exactly a month before I came to write to you, you had passed. The cancer had finally caught up, and that was devastating.

But I also remembered how you said when I left Dubai that somehow, somewhere, you will be there to look out for me. And I believed that. Then and now. It’s been two years since you’ve left us, and everytime something grand happens in my life, it strikes me that you possibly had something to do with it.

The birthday of yours after you passed, I got my first big assignment at work. The next birthday, I got the new job at my uni, and a whole host of good things. And the most recent evidence, which I only just realised while writing this, was when my blog reached its major milestone. June 13th, 2013. 2 years after you passed.

All these may just be random things, or you may have something to do with it. Either way, I would love to believe you do. Just so I know, you’re there out there, watching over me and the countless other lives you’ve touched.

Thank you for being a part of my life. I miss you, Munna.

Love,

Me

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It always seems impossible, until it is done.

When I initially started this blog, I never thought it would get to where it has today. On June 13th, almost exactly 7 months after I first started it,  I hit a major milestone which I would love to share with all of you – my readers, and my pillars of support – known and unknown to me =)

Milestone 1: I hit 1,000 views on my blog (I don’t even know who lucky 1,000th was, but I’m grateful!). That’s ONE THOUSAND VIEWS. For a writer, to know that there are people waiting to read my posts, is an amazing feeling. To know that in a little over half a year, there are a thousand views on what comes out of my heart and mind…that is another feeling altogether. I feel blessed that you think I am worth your time. Thank you for giving me this joy =)

Milestone 2: This may seem silly to most of you, or it may not. Regardless, I have to share this! My 1,000th visitor also gave me a wonderful gift…The knowledge that there was a search term that got me onto the first page on Google search! Without even trying!!! The search term was ‘top twenty something writers blog’ (it showed up on my statistics page), so I typed it into Google, and I was ecstatic at the result…because I wasn’t expecting it! First page on Google; that really means a lot. And I don’t even know how!

So that is the biggest thing to happen =) Thank you to all of you for affirming my faith in my writing, and making me believe it matters =) It inspired me to write some more, hence the Day 13 being published, and Day 14 is on its way too. Now that the semester is done, I’m hoping to have enough and more time to write more regularly. Again, to all of you – my 30 fellow blog enthusiasts, 90 Facebook likers, and 93 folk from the Twitter-verse – from the bottom of my heart, I truly appreciate the support =)

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Day 13 — Dear future me

Note: I’m writing this to my 40 year old self, presuming that it’s a good time in the future to write to.

Dear future me,

I did mention you in my previous letter. But I shall, once again reiterate what I have to say. Just so we’re clear, you know?

I hope that as you read this, you have finished your ’30 before 30′ list, and have moved on to your ‘Things to do before I’m 40’ list. I hope that you have everything your heart has hoped for, because with every little hurdle you face along the way, you realise that you deserve it all. Because you have damn well earned it.

Let’s hope that all the things you believed in when you were young were worth believing in when you read this. That true friends will stick by you through it all. That love is hard, but it’s worth it. That family is important, but they don’t always know what’s good for you. That you are your own person, in charge of your own happiness, and that no one can take that from you.

I hope you have reached that point in life where you are happy with the person you are, inside and out. Where you are finally the best version of you that you believe you can possibly be. You have a beautiful soul (something too many people have already told you), and you should have let that beauty shine upon the world. They deserve it.

Lastly, I don’t know what direction your life has taken you professionally. But all I hope is that you still write. Either as a hobby or as part of your career, I hope you put your soul to paper as often as you can. Because I know this now, I knew it a while ago, and you will know it too – nothing helps you grow and soar to heights unknown with the joy that writing gives you.

I look forward to YOU.

Love,

Me

P.S. Never forget, nothing beats a good hug, or a bowl of ice cream with good music and a book =)

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